Good And Bad Angels (2011)
1. (A Theme For) Good and Bad Angels
2. Hannah Bond
3. Inhale/Exhale
4. When The Ball Drops (Or Nua Lang Syne)
5. Please Lie to Me
6. Angels (Took You from Me)
7. Tonight Might Save My Life
8. Those Beautiful Words
9. Samsara
10. Shelf Life
11. A Last Retrospect
12. Angels (brought you to me)
13. ( A Requiem For) Good and Bad Angels
B-Side - Lil Emily
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Hannah Bond
If I could save you from drowning tonight
I would give my life for you right now and
I swear that I would trade with you
If you’d stayed with me because
I can’t face the night all alone
We are the only ones who feel this pain
The lonely ones who scar the same and
We fear the same mistakes each other make cause
We are the only
One night it just takes one frantic night
To take you from your bloodsmile overdramatic eyes
So carelessly you slip into the warmth of a
Double edged goodbye. Goodbye.
We are the only ones who feel this pain
The lonely ones who scar the same and
We fear the same mistakes each other make cause
We are the only ones
If I could save you from drowning tonight
If I could save you from drowning tonight
If I could save you from drowning tonight I would
We are the only ones who feel this pain
The lonely ones who scar the same and
We fear the same mistakes each other make cause
We are the only ones
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Inhale/Exhale
Inhale, breathe in the night be glad that we’re alive
Cause it’s true there’s something about me and you
That’s impossible to define
And I’ll stay awake all night if you stay awake all night
Exhale, breathe out the past. You’re not the girl you were
They want to keep you behind glass all ribbons and curls
To me you’re so much more
To me you’re so much more than that
Exhale, breath out the ghosts you’ve kept tied to your dreams
I promise I won’t let that haunt you if you should fall asleep
I won’t leave your side
I won’t leave your side until morning’s light
And you inhale feel lungs expand the first breath of a brand new life
Promise me your fashion will be hearts on sleeves and if yours fails
You can have mine
Inhale
Inhale breath in the night be glad that we’re alive
Inhale
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When The Ball Drops (Or Nua Lang Syne)
Even though we tried so hard
We just couldn’t be together for the first snowfall
And oh I know I know you told me so
We both had obligations to fulfill
You said “it’s all part of growing up”
And I know that your band is blowing up right now
You gotta go when you say you gotta go
And I know exactly how you feel
But the holidays are hard alone
And I don’t know if I can get through this
On my own with you on the road
And a countdown tonight is supposed to end with a kiss
This new year
If we only had one night together
Forever and ever
Know that I would trade a lifetime
For one night
(Ten) The countdown starts with anticipation
(Nine) The crowds ready for a celebration
(Eight) The lights dim as everybody counts down
(Seven) I’m wondering where you are right now
(Six) I scan the crowd thinking maybe she’ll surprise me
(Five) With a sly smile she sneak up behind me
(Four) Wrap her arms around me whisper she’s mine
(Three Two One) The clock strikes twelve and I’ve run out of time
But the holidays are hard alone
And I don’t know if I can get through this
On my own with you on the road
And a countdown tonight is supposed to end with a kiss
This new year
If we only had one night together
For ever and ever
Know that I would trade a lifetime
For one night
What if I couldn’t stay?
What if you wouldn’t wait?
What if you went away?
Who would save me?
What if I’m all alone?
No distractions at all?
Who would save me?
What should I say when you say “I can’t do this”?
How exactly do you think that I can get through this?
Who will you be with when the countdown starts?
Who will you kiss when the ball drops?
Who would save me?
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Please Lie To Me
You’re not like them
Those other girls who all love to play pretend
Fake facades with names to match
Wearing makeup like a mask
To hide the faces of their past
But then there’s you
You’re open water reaching sunset
The smile of a daughter I have not met yet
I was lonely all along, never thought I could belong
With someone like you
I hope that I was wrong
Because now I know with you I am home
And if you know just say so
But if you don’t
Please lie to me
Tell me you love me even if you don’t believe
Tell me you’re lonely baby I’ll agree
Tell me you love me or lie to me
Time and time again so hard I have tried
Through gritted teeth and burning eyes I have cried
And every lonely night when I felt like I might die
I never dreamed that I would find a better life
But now I know with you I am home
So if you know it just say so
But if you don’t
Please lie to me
Tell me you love me even if you don’t believe
Tell me you’re lonely baby and I’ll agree
Tell me you feel that I’m just what you need
We fit perfectly when you lie with me
Tell me your secrets baby confide in me
I’ll be your best friend and your diary
So baby please please please please
Now I know with you I am home
So if you know it in your soul baby tell me so
But if you don’t
Lie to me
Tell me you love me even if you don’t believe
Tell me you’re lonely baby and I’ll agree
Tell me you feel that I’m just what you need
We fit perfectly when you lie with me
Tell me your secrets, confide in me
I’ll be your best friend and your diary
So baby please lie to me
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Angels (Took You From Me)
I am left with these nights hiding out in a hotel room
High above the city
I am left with those days taking each other’s photographs
And wandering the streets
I had just gotten back from overseas
You had written a letter asking if you could come stay with me
You had left me a message asking if I could call you please
And the very next night the angels took you away in your sleep
Now I am left with those nights driving around in Washington
Trying to find you
And I am left with the way that you jumped up into my arms
The first moment I saw you
And I am left with these pictures and all of these memories
Of our fragile little life
I am left with the guilt and the deep understanding that I
I never said goodbye
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Tonight Might Save My Life
The air is crisp tonight
Slips through my lips and stings my lungs
As we run. Run this town. (All black everything)
The moon is low tonight
It lights our way as shadows play
Through the streets. The streets we own
Oh for so long I’ve been falling
So long I have fallen for their lies
At what price?
Tonight might save my life
Tonight might save my life
If you care for me now just be there for me now
Come save my life
Time is dead tonight
No sweeping hands or falling sands
As we hide as we lie
War has died tonight
There is no them there’s only us
And we are in love and love is enough
Of for so long we’ve been falling
We fall like the stars from the sky
It’s tonight
Tonight might save my life
Tonight might save my life
If you care for me now just be there for me
And I believe I could find some peace
With you tonight in these city streets
I believe I could finally sleep
To the rhythm of your heartbeat
Tonight might save my life
Tonight might save my life
If you care for me now just be there
Tonight might save my life
Tonight might save my life
If you care for me now just be there for me now
Come save my life
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Those Beautiful Words
If you loved me
How could you go and leave me
Didn’t you mean anything
Those beautiful words you told me
I hope this finds you one lonely night
And your shatter proof picturesque life
Gets the tiniest fracture line
I hope this finds you and you cry
I have wept till I had no tears left
I was certain it would be my death
And if you loved me
How could you go and leave me
Didn’t you mean anything
Those beautiful words you told me
I hope that you are still looking your best
I’ve dressed for my funeral each day since you left
And I hope that you are surrounded by love
For you it’s never enough
If you loved me
How could you go and leave me
Didn’t you mean anything
Those beautiful words you told me
And I wish you all of the best
A life you can truly call blessed
I hope you find happiness
Just not yet and not with him
I wish you the very best life
You’ll be a beautiful and blushing bride
All the happiness we could not get
Just not yet
Our apartment has three months on the lease
But since you left I just can’t get any sleep
So I packed our belongings, turned it into storage
And moved down the street
Now I still visit when I need some things
The weight of our former life hangs here heavily
You say you still love me. I want to believe
Please come home to me
If you loved me
How could you go and leave me
Didn’t you mean anything
Those beautiful words you told me
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Samsāra
Are we like children wandering in the cold
Lost and all alone just waiting to be called home
All my life I’ve waited for a sign
All this time spent waiting
I’m waiting for the ending
When I am laid to peace I pray that it’s like sleep
With all my friends surrounding me
This waking world a dream when I am finally free
With everyone I’ve ever loved surrounding
Can you feel it
Coursing through your blood
Deep inside your bones
When we leave do we leave alone
And all my life we’ve waited for a sign
All this time spent waiting
I’m waiting for an ending
When I am laid to peace I pray that it’s like sleep
With all my friends surrounding me
This waking world a dream when I am finally free
With everyone I’ve ever known surrounding
I will be free
Free from the memories
When I am laid to peace I pray that it’s like sleep
With all my friends surrounding me
This waking world a dream when I am finally free
With everyone I’ve ever known surrounding
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Shelf Life
I headed head first into infatuation
You headed home to honor your grandmother’s memory
And I hate to think of how he held you
And how his words provided much needed comforting
So I headed East across the Carolinas
To visit Ruby by the sea
I’ve never seen a soul so sincere
In a girl with such short life expectancy
It seems the shelf life of my friends is far below average
We all expire in our prime
And a late night frantic phone call left me shaken
And you’re cutting off your hair to change your life
But a difference in makeup can’t make up for the things you hide
And your new style can’t cover what’s inside
Names are tattooed on and covered with broken hearts
X’d out arms tingle with drunken shots
A change of address comes with a change of name
For years a waste now such a shame
What’s in a name anyway
It seems the shelf life of our love is far past due
It expired long ago
Cause you’re not the girl you used to be
And I’m not the boy you used to dream you’d meet
We’re not the people we pretend to be
Rock n roll kings and model queens
But we rarely speak anymore
No we barely speak anymore
And I can’t remember when we stopped saying I Love You
I love you still
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A Last Retrospect
These past few months have been impossible to take
It’s impossible to shake this loneliness since you went away
And I’m afraid that this feeling is forever
And somehow I will never be the same since you said
You said baby let go until I am just a memory
Because darling you know it’d make it easier on me
And what came before could be just a shadow of a dream
So baby let go until there is no more you and me
These past few nights have been the longest of my life
I’m scared that I might die from this emptiness since you said goodbye
I don’t know why you said we’d be forever
If you never meant forever all this time why’d you lie
You said baby let go until I am just a memory
Because darling you know it’d make it easier on me
And what came before could be just a shadow of a dream
So baby let go until there is no more you and me
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Angels (Brought You to Me)
Two days in London and my whole world has changed
Fifteen years and thousands of miles but this feeling is the same
Two days in London and my world’s turned upside down
Everything I thought I loved quickly fades into background
And I’m awoken by the knock from the hotel maid
Oh no, I explained, the girl who was here now has gone
Only I have stayed. Draw the curtains tight
Please don’t let any light find its way inside
When she’s gone I’m not so strong
So maybe today I can just stay here and hide
Two days in London now everything has changed
Hold me tight in the Underground kiss me sweetly on the train
Two days in London, my eyes are open wide
At every possibility to turn around this dead end life
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Lil Emily
I found myself lost in Chicago
What I hoped to find there I don’t know
What I found is that I’m still alone
And I probably should be heading home
One of these days I’ll find a girl who’ll care for me
And she’ll want to start a family
And she won’t have to lie
About all those other guys
But for now I know I’m not worthy
Lil Emily fades
Lil Emily fades
Lil Emily fades
Lil Emily fades
For the things I wouldn’t say
All the times I couldn’t stay
Lil Emily fades
I spent the summer on my father’s land
Dug my toes in Carolina sand
Listened hard to what my Grandmother sang
Promised my mom I’d be a better man
One of these days I’ll find a girl who’ll wanna be my bride
She’ll take great pride to stand right by my side
But until then I have my band
And we’ll hop into the van
And we’ll tour this whole world wide
Lil Emily fades
Lil Emily fades
Lil Emily fades
Lil Emily fades
For the things i couldn’t say
And the times I went away
Lil Emily fades
Whatever happened to my empathy
What happened to my sense of dignity
And when did I grow up
When the fuck did I lose touch
And just start playing for your sympathy
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The Manifest Destiny Rebellion (2005)
1. This Is Not A Song
2. Learn To Be Happy
3. Changing of the Seasons
4. Drive Away
5. I Will Be Fine
6. A List of Demands
7. Sorry Even Matters
8. Tour Vans and Neurosis
9. Life is so Rad
10. I Love You..Get Away from Me
11. Blind and Screaming
12. This Apology (Hidden Track)
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This is Not a Song
this is not a song
this is not a melody
this is just another attempt at a sincere apology
this is not a song
this is not me singing
this is just an open letter this is me apologizing
and this is not a song
these are not lyrics
this is just another way to chase away these spirits
and this is not a song
these are not my words
this is simply me saying sorry to a girl
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Learn To Be Happy
i heard that you like him
in fact that you are smitten
i heard that he has tattoos
i heard that his band’s real cool
and i cannot believe
this is happening to me
i thought we’d be forever
and i’d learn to be happy
i heard that you kissed him
on a lonely wooden bench
behind a cemetery
where my martyrs laid to waist
and i cannot believe
this is happening to me
i thought we’d be forever
and i’d learn to be happy
bleeding for hollywood
maybe if you suffer long enough
someone will publicize this tragedy
and i cannot believe
i cannot believe
this is happening to me
and i cannot believe
i cannot believe
i cannot believe yeah
bleeding for hollywood
maybe if you suffer long enough
someone will publicize this tragedy
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Changing Of The Seasons
i went to blossom in the morning
sat on the roof of my car
wanted to write something important
haven’t come up with anything so far
i was thinking about leaving
just cash my chips in and walk away
’cause it’s the changing of the seasons
and my blue skies have all turned gray
i was thinking would it matter
if you never saw me again
’cause my life is torn and tattered
and i know you’ll never ever let me in
i was thinking about leaving
’cause i don’t feel the need to stay
’cause it’s the changing of the seasons baby
and my blue skies have all turned gray
the sun’s been stolen from my sky
endless days fade into night
and i have lived my life in darkness so long
well can you shed some light?
i was thinking of driving real fast
just cash my chips in and walk away
and it’s the changing of the seasons baby
and my blue skies have all turned gray
i’ve been thinking about leaving
’cause i don’t feel the need to stay
and it’s the changing of the seasons baby
and my blue skies have all turned to gray…
and on… and on… and on..
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Drive Away
crying as your driving
as the rain falls from the sky
and you’re thinking about leaving
as a tear falls from your eye
and no one ever has the right
to make you feel the way you feel tonight
somehow someway
i will make this all ok
i know someday
we will both drive away
needing and i’m bleeding
as my friends just turn away
they are lying and deceiving
as they never meant to stay
and no one has ever felt the way
the way i feel about you today
somehow someway
i will make this all ok
i know someday
we will both drive away
and if you wanted we could leave tonight…
somehow someway
i will make this all ok
i know someday
we will both drive away
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I Will Be Fine
i will be fine
i will not miss her
i’ll just spend the night
in my bed with some scissors
they’ll snip where she slept
and they’ll cut where she kissed
they’ll carve the word “nothing”
while i am not missed
and i will be fine
i will be fine
i will not cry
i won’t stay up
late at night wondering why
i will not focus
on details i miss
how she never once
closes her eyes when we kiss
and i will be fine
i will lie here
with each sharpened memory
shears you can not take from me
with mere lies and treachery
and we’ll remember
every broken promise made
with each crimson line we lay
with such perfect symmetry
i am not a hollow shell…
i will be fine
i am not empty
i’ll just walk around
like a ghost in this city
i’ll smile when we meet
and i’ll say polite hi
and i’ll never once tell her
how i want to die
cause i will be fine
i will lie here
with each sharpened memory
shears you can not take from me
with mere lies and treachery
and we’ll remember
every broken promise made
with each crimson line we lay
with such perfect symmetry
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A List Of Demands
considering the pain you bring
with every memory
i am alive and reconsidering
every little thing
just like the faded folded photograph
that haunts me in my dreams
i’ve got this funny fucked up feeling
that you’re nothing like you seem
so won’t you think of me in the silent moment
before you go to sleep
because i think of you with memories stolen
i want to lock you up
and keep you safe from harm
just out of reach
tucked away hidden and underneath
and i can’t help but be this way
but i am changing every day
and the harder that it seems
it just grows that much more important to me
considering the scene you’re in
white belts and black jackets
bandannas peering out of back pockets
cigarettes and sunglasses
you’ve got your attitudes and your alcohol
won’t sleep alone tonight
i’d rather be alone than lonely
with you anti-socialites
i miss my dog
and that big blue van
and i hate all your friends
you love your scene so much so keep all that
and i can’t help but be this way
but i am changing every day
and the harder that it seems
it just grows that much more import to me
i’ve got this little idea
to list my demands right here
for all the world to see
just to proclaimate them
and encapsulate them
may be all the help i need
so here goes…
not to be so negative
not so argumentative
not to be possessive
and not to be so aggressive
not to be judgmental
and not to be so serious
not to have this cloud
hanging over my head
and not to be so lonely
i’ve got to snap out of this
not to be a liar
and not to be so cynical
i’ve no control
and i can’t help but be this way
but i am changing every day
and the harder that it seems
it just grows that much more
important to me
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Sorry Even Matters
i wanted something better than this
there’s something missing in you eyes
the light’s been gone from them
for days and nights are lonely
when you go away
there’s something missing in your smile
is there something you want to
say to me but you’re
afraid to say
and i know that you know
what it’s like to be alone
and you know, i know
what it’s like feeling alone
i don’t know and i’m not sure
if sorry is good enough anymore
i don’t know and i’m not sure
if sorry even matters
there’s something missing in my life
is there something i should take
if taking something
takes this pain away
there’s something missing in my life
is there something i should say
if saying something
makes you say you’ll stay
and i know that you know
what it’s like to feel alone
you know, i know
what it’s like being alone
i don’t know, i’m not sure
if sorry is good enough any more
i don’t know and i’m not sure
if sorry even matters
cause i wanted something better than this
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Tour Vans And Neurosis
with another foot closer
to the preverbial ledge
with another broken heart
and busted edge
with another empty promise
that i know i can’t keep
and another fading night
because i know i can’t sleep
with everything you are
and everything i’m not
with everything i’ve lost
and all these vices i’ve got
with every waking second
of every fucking day
with all these haunting voices
that i wish would go away
and i am praying for rain
to fall down on me
and wash off the pain
that i’ve grown to need
i am praying for rain
to fall down on me
they say it’s cleansing
and i believe
they say regret looks back
confusion looks around
they say faith looks to the sky
so i focus on the ground
cause i’m stepping on the cracks
practicing what i can say
just to try to make it better
or just make it ok
and i am praying for rain
to fall down on me
and wash off the pain
that i’ve grown to need
i am praying for rain
to fall down on me
they say it’s cleansing
and you ask
“are you mad at me?”
and i confirm
you don’t even bother asking why
you’re unconcerned
from kicking you out
to kissing in the rain
this life is like a bad romance movie
so goodbye to old lovers
goodbye to this town
goodbye to my friends
who feel they once knew me well
cause i got me some songs
and i got me a band
and i got me a day job
to buy me a van
and i’m leaving this town
and you people i hate
and i’ll smile to myself
as we hit the next state
and i am praying for rain
to fall down on me
and wash off the pain
that i’ve grown to need
someone turn down the sun
bring me some night
i can’t stand the way
i look in this daylight
i am praying for rain
to fall down on me
and wash off the pain
that i’ve grown to need
i am praying for rain
to fall down on me
they say it’s cleansing
and i believe
they say that miracles never cease
well i am totally alone
they say the history just repeats and repeats
i am once again on my own
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Life Is So Rad
i wanna make you sad
i wanna make you cry
i wanna make you feel the way
i feel inside
and i won’t ever be alright
no i won’t ever be alright
i wanna loose your face
to forget your name
would be the change i need
so i can face the day again
but i won’t ever be alright
no i won’t ever be alright
you heard the anxiousness and urgency
if my voice on the phone
and the little voice inside your head
said “he shouldn’t be alone”
so picked me up and you held me up
and said “when’s this gonna end?”
when you’re not with him
and i won’t ever be alright
no i won’t ever be alright
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I Love You…Get Away From Me
i think it’s a joke
the way that you apologize
and it hurts
knowing you can lie while looking in my eyes
and you laugh
but this is no joke this is my life
and you cry
but tears won’t make this alright
and when we lay together
and i ask you what you’re thinking
you will tell me “nothing really”
i know your “nothing really”
has a face and a name
and here i thought that we were both the same
oh no
so yeah maybe i’m afraid of me
and what i’ll say instinctively
when i’m with you don’t know what to do
i’m grounded by your platitude
and what i need is some room to breath
away from all this apathy
so write this down in your diary:
he said ” i love you…get away from me”
i think it’s a joke
the way you say you understand
cause you don’t
there’s no way for you to comprehend
and when we lay together
and you ask me what i’m thinking
i will tell you “nothing really”
know my “nothing really”
has a face and a name
know that i have learned to play your game
oh no
so yeah maybe i’m afraid of me
and what i’ll say instinctively
when i’m with you don’t know what to do
i’m grounded by your platitude
and what i need is some room to breath
away from all this apathy
so write this down in your diary
he said “i love you…get away from me”
sometimes when we lay together…
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Blind and Screaming
sleep now, sweetheart.
i will watch over you.
you’re sleeping deeper
as sleep comes creeping in the room.
drift off baby.
i’ll sit and wait for you
to come back and say to me
“i’ll always stay with you.”
so sleep now, sweetheart.
i will watch over you.
sleep now, sweetheart.
i will watch over you
you’re sleeping deeper
as shadows bleed across the room
when i get needy
i know you’ll be there for me
when i’m blind and screaming
i know you’ll take care of me
so sleep now, sweetheart
i will watch over you
sleep now, sweetheart
i will watch over you
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This Apology
It’s not alright. It’s not ok.
It’s not enough that you feel this way.
It’s not alright and it’s not ok.
It’s not enough that we feel the same.
I will write this apology.
Line after line I will rhyme this apology.
Time after time I will find it’s so hard to say I’m sorry.
Dear Love, I like this love.
But a love like this is likely to level me.
Dear Love, I like this love.
But a love like this is likely to level me.
I will write this apology.
Line after line I will rhyme this apology.
Time after time I will find it’s so hard to say I’m sorry.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
